What is Happening!?

Ever since learning about our research project and what we would be looking for and doing I have been looking at films in a different way. A week or so ago I was talking with my husband about some film, (the title escapes me at this time) and I remember thinking to myself after we were talking about the film, that would be an interesting theory to research and present. After I had that thought my initial reaction was “oh no! what’s happened!? I’m thinking of research papers that would be interesting to write!” For the first time ever in my life I thought of a  research paper thesis and thought it would be a cool thing to write about, on my own accord without an assignment. I do not consider myself a writer and have never aspired to become one but for the first time in my life I thought it would be cool to write a paper for fun, for my own benefit. Seriously what is happening to me!???